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    Sure, if you think your life is pretty bad, you haven't seen anything like mine.  My life was a horrible event to live by.   I'm not a normal kid and I never will be.  My life in the past really didn't seem so well.  Right now I stand as a much former and well said person, a happy person, a person who is willing to sacrifice himself for people to be happy.  Yes, I realize that some people reading this will think of anger and annoying things about me.  But truthfully, I'm not like that, I'm funny/wild because of two main reasons.  To have a smile and to give a smile.  Some people just plainly don't want to know me because other people may seem to know me, but illusions of assumptions run freely in a teenagers life.

    In my life, I've been threaten, hated, prosecuted, beaten, overwhelmed, distorted, unloved, verged of dying, and much much more.  There could've been many times where in life a random mistake could pop out of no where and just screw MY LIFE around, NOT someone elses.  Sure, we all can't be a positive person all the time and yes, most of us just simply think that being negative must always be corrected to be positive.  But as my father once said "you must learn to be bad, if you want to be good."

    I titled this "Rumors of a Forgotten Soul," because during that area of time, God really didn't seem to show up.  Because people didn't bother to deal with me.  Alot of people say to themselves that people hate them.  But the truth was, they don't know what hate really was.

Currently Listening Love By The Beatles see related

You know if you want things in life, you gotta god damn work your ass off for it.

Especially Happiness.

What is Happiness?  Well, happiness is basicly true satsifaction.

What is true satsifaction?

Giving what you have to offer.  I'm not talking about money or fancy things, I'm talking about what YOU have to give to people.  Storytelling, experience to teach, teaching, and many many things that only revolves you.

Look at oldmen in hospitals, what are they left?  Nothing but the old and dying.  They can't have money, because money can't heal them.  So what do we give them?  We give them the love that they've been missing.  The love that they need and the love that they want so they can know that we still care for each other, that we're still human beings.

that truly, is happiness.

Currently Listening Rock Swings By Paul Anka see related

Sorry about the late posts because I've been talking to alot of people lately.

ANd you know I've discovered many things.

First off, well I basicly healed my OCD which I'm glad but at the same point I keep saying, this isn't me.

Second, Liking and loving are two different things but I can only choose one so therefore I chose "Like," because love comes later but first like.

Third, I've been given a second chance to prove myself, so I'm using it to make it better.  Like Elvis Presley said "Only Fools rush in."

Fourth, Doing the things I want to do are sometimes off but I do the things I can do and spend my time with people that needs time to be spent.

Last, I've taken things alot serious and quite frankly I just don't live life anymore, I celebrate it.

I'm happy that I'm alive and I'm living.  I'm so happy with my life.

Who knows what goes on later in life.

Currently Listening Please Please Me By The Beatles see related

You know, I respect everything about her.

The way she lives her life.

The way she helps the poor.

The way she knows how to give out her love to people.

I completely respect her and her opinions.

I just think maybe I would prove myself to her to show that I am capable of being in relationships..

What should I do?

What must I do to get the woman I want to love to love me back?